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It's late, and your head won't stop

Three in the morning has its own logic, and it is a liar. Everything it tells you about your life is made of true facts arranged in the worst possible order.

You know this. You knew it last time too. It doesn't help, because the part of you that is awake right now isn't the part that knows things.

So don't argue with it. You can't win an argument at 3am — the room is rigged. Just notice that you are being told a story by something that has never once been right about the morning.

Here's what is actually true: your body doesn't need you to fall asleep. It needs you to stop trying. Lying still in the dark, bored, doing nothing, is most of what sleep is anyway. The rest arrives when you stop guarding the door.

Let the thought come. Let it sit there without answering it. It will say the thing about tomorrow, and the thing about the conversation you handled badly, and the thing about money. Let it. You are not required to solve anything between now and sunrise.

Nothing you decide tonight counts. That isn't a criticism, it's a release. Every decision made at this hour gets reviewed in daylight anyway, so you can put it down.

Your only job for the next few hours is to lie here and let time pass. That's the whole assignment. You are already doing it perfectly.